Dropping different

Since Sir and I are separated by miles I do experience sub drop. He tries everything to help me with it. Long talks, sweet notes, words of caring and encouragement.

I don’t normally drop after a scene but when he leaves. I think my mind processes the entire time he is here as one long scene since my brain knows he will be leaving at some point.

But again it’s just another feeling. I think if it as part of the process. 

This time was so much different. There was no real depression, it was a mostly physical thing. The headache mixed with being hyper sexual and yet not wanting anyone at all but Sir.

My way of dealing was edging myself into subspace over and over for days. That I think brought on the headache. 

Last night Sir let me cum 40 times. It was a wonderful release and after I cried. The emotions finally coming to the surface. He encouraged me to find a girl to hug, but my head pounded and my speech was hard. So I darkened a room and crawled into bed. I am finding that sleep, just blank, no dream exhaustion sleep was the cure I needed.

The more partners and sex I have the worse my need becomes and the cycle is like one of those mouse mazes. I fall too deep into my fantasies and needs and my vanilla life suffers.

Yesterday I could not consintrate on a thing at work. Nothing was done. That was when I knew it was a drop. My type a took a back seat to my bodies need to be a slave and that’s not a good thing in my field since I have very tight deadlines.

So today I am up and clear headed once again. Hopeing the drop is over. Needing to get my work done and this week over.