Dropping different

Since Sir and I are separated by miles I do experience sub drop. He tries everything to help me with it. Long talks, sweet notes, words of caring and encouragement.

I don’t normally drop after a scene but when he leaves. I think my mind processes the entire time he is here as one long scene since my brain knows he will be leaving at some point.

But again it’s just another feeling. I think if it as part of the process. 

This time was so much different. There was no real depression, it was a mostly physical thing. The headache mixed with being hyper sexual and yet not wanting anyone at all but Sir.

My way of dealing was edging myself into subspace over and over for days. That I think brought on the headache. 

Last night Sir let me cum 40 times. It was a wonderful release and after I cried. The emotions finally coming to the surface. He encouraged me to find a girl to hug, but my head pounded and my speech was hard. So I darkened a room and crawled into bed. I am finding that sleep, just blank, no dream exhaustion sleep was the cure I needed.

The more partners and sex I have the worse my need becomes and the cycle is like one of those mouse mazes. I fall too deep into my fantasies and needs and my vanilla life suffers.

Yesterday I could not consintrate on a thing at work. Nothing was done. That was when I knew it was a drop. My type a took a back seat to my bodies need to be a slave and that’s not a good thing in my field since I have very tight deadlines.

So today I am up and clear headed once again. Hopeing the drop is over. Needing to get my work done and this week over.

11 thoughts on “Dropping different”

  1. Do you ever nibble on chocolate after a scene? I find it helps me a lot with the drop. πŸ™‚

    40 times, wow! πŸ™‚

    So very much enjoying your blog.. xx

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    1. lol, I do use chocolate and when I know I’m going somewhere (like on New Year’s Eve) I even bake chocolate chip cookies!!! Funny thing, 40 times really isn’t that much anymore. That used to be a omg 40 times, now it’s …… Only 40? Lol
      Thank you for reading!
      Question I saw on your blog that you also become super wet when your owner is away, how do you deal with it?

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      1. Lol, mm, chocolate chip cookies sound like the best thing for after a scene! I always beg my Daddy for a milkshake on nights that we’ve had a heavy scene at the local dungeon on our way home. Always does the trick! lol.

        Wow, I’m multi orgasmic, but 40, eee, for me that’s like an awesome goal to reach! lol. I would say my highest in one session would be prolly in the 20’s. Maybe I’ll set 40 as a new goal, see if I can reach it! lol. πŸ™‚

        On the question – Oh dear yes, I so do! And of course one of Daddy’s rules is that I cannot play/touch Him or myself without permission – that can make it all that more difficult! I do have some things I try to do to make it easier, I’ll write them up in a post for you here today if you like? πŸ™‚

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      2. I will do that then, I’ll let you know when it’s posted. πŸ™‚

        Ah, that sounds great! Mine has been training me with Orgasm control/denial for quite some time now, the orgasm on demand is not as strong so far still, but I’ve noticed I cum a lot faster and more often lately in this stage of the training. πŸ™‚

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      3. Oh no I can’t comment on your blog!!! Lol thanks for the post. This week is so bad I’ve taken to wearing thin full sized pads! Our dynamic is a bit different as I’m allowed play partners while he is away. I would much rather have him. He is kind in allowing me to cum when I reach my limit but my needs grow everyday!

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      4. Ut oh, it wouldn’t let you reply? Did you get an error, or? Let me know if it’s something I can fix, everything is still kind of new over there. πŸ™‚

        It was my pleasure! I very much understand, and your dynamic sounds very similar to ours, I am allowed the same thing. πŸ™‚ But yes, I agree, I’d always rather have Him as well! πŸ™‚ So tough sometimes! Hang in there!! πŸ™‚

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