So out of the list, Sir says only 6 were real sexual encounters. So the number is not really that high.
But when he is glass half full, I’m not really a pessimist but more a realist. My previous 20 count did not count a 2 minute bj,(of which I’ve only given one) or girls (and there were only 3 or 4). I had four long tem relationships that spanned the majority of the last 20 years. In the brief times I was single I would not have one night stands but instead many fwb. If not the number would have been 4. The rest were just fuck buddies. So I guess a part of me feels crappy because 1) most of the people on the list I’m not friends with and if I am now I wasn’t when we were initially together. 2) Even though I know that this is to please Sir, it sometimes feels like …….. I’m acting out against adulthood.
Funny in the past I was called a whore and slut but really I wasn’t. Now I guess I am.