so I’ve figured out a bit of why I’m not so fond of swinger parties. I feel like the anomaly, the red head in a room of blonds.
In most cases it lacks the connection that I need. I love the idea of Sir sharing me, but there’s something weird about how I feel when it’s not with like minded people….damn, now I have more to figure out!
Funny that fet girl said the exact same thing today. She’s not into random sex.
Plus to me they are mostly vanilla. Sex is easy, there’s nothing to it. D/s is hard, it takes commitment and communication. If I didn’t feel so cared for and safe with Sir I would never have stayed and grown as much as I have under his guidence.
I know Sir likes swingers. So sir says go and I go. I’ve run into a few that I really do like, but rarely in a party environment.
I like the intimacy of a small play date or the wildness of a Bdsm club. They are ying and yang to me. The inbetween not so much.
More tomorrow, gym time