I never get any.
Not even 10 minutes ago I was fine. Writing an email joking to Sir about post it notes. Now…I just want to cry.
No trigger, no tangible reason.
This is the crappy side that my part a personality has real issue with. I was productive and now…nope can’t even think of what I have to do.
I just want to cry and sleep.
I was outside before and a couple went by hand in hand. It made me realize there are actual things I miss about a more traditional relationship. My ex husband was mostly a disaster, but he had his good moments. I miss …I guess having someone there. I wanted independence and well…now I’ve gotten it and it’s a bite of a curse.
I know for a fact that I love living alone….but I hate being so lonely. I have people, friends, play partners,vanilla and not. But I still have this feeling….
I could not ask for a better and more understanding Sir and I’m so sorry you have to put up with my …. Blahx3.
I also think a part of me is …. Fighting the changes in me.
I really just need a hug.