I learned

id make a pretty brilliant freshman in high school! Part one of the semester long project if lord of the flies is complete!! Woo hoo!

It was nice to get a bitter sweet taste of life as a mother, with c quite going through paper work and her daughter and I doing character pages and designing the covers etc.

She has strict orders to call me the minute she gets the next part. She had weeks and in one night we did the best we could. I showed her what I do for work and she was amazed that basically I make her projects for a living. So sad I think we will only get a 75 because we had so little time, but at least she has something to hand in and even better, it came with no tears or screaming and wAs full of laughs and jokes!

C said she should come here for every project, it’s so calm and quite. Of course it is, hello, it’s just me here. In my sanctuary.

This Friday after a much wanted drink is put in my hand I will finish that talk with c. She needs to see that there’s a good chance her daughter won’t make it through high school and it’s not out of lack of respect for her mother, but…, she would need constant supervision and neither parent is able or willing to do that. It sad, but true. She needs to have someone there as she reads, she has no ability to comprehend half of what she’s being asked to read. Her vocabulary is shit. She had no idea how to pick out a quote in a book. 

There’s real problems and they are only going to get worse if unaddressed. I’ll give it the year and then offer to tutor her for her ged. It’s better than 4 years of failure if her parents don’t get up and help. I’m more concerned with what it will do to her self esteem than anything. Saddest thing, she is smart, she is just different, living with people who can’t get her.

I told C …. Even with my help, there’s no saying she will pass. The foundations aren’t there. I’ll try my hardest, but no more last minute crap, if she had 3 weeks, we should have spent at least 2 weeks in this. I blame her parents more than her for waiting until the last minute.

I don’t know if she will listen, but they both left happy, no fights and school work is done.

As for me, ugh work is going to be hell tomorrow, but I’ll deal with it.

This morning I dreamt of getting a spanking, no particulars, but I was wet, so Sir was right, I’m not broken. 

He called up people he knew that had similar procedures done and when they recovered their sex drive increased. Lol, I’m afraid of loosing mine, but, ugh, I’m equally afraid of it increasing. I have bad enough cunt brain, I can’t imagine that being worse! I’ve walked straight into walls trapped in my dirty thoughts……

I’m tired… I’m just about keeping my eyes open…time to give the nonstop night of writing a rest and get ready to cuddle with the pups.

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