so I continue my conversation with the sub….
I watch the show…
They say how the girl was pregnant
I go mentally back to the only time with exdom we had anything near after care.
The first time….7 hours into a scene… We are both crashing, we spoke of the shit that went wrong in the past, the funny stuff we remember….
Sir, it’s why I don’t like the beach.
He lives at the shore, he smelled of sex and the sea.
We spoke of how we were both deemed ” infertile”.
We joked that for sure I’d be pregnant because that was our luck.
Just a shitty kinda flashback
So a fear attached to all of his shit is my triedd and true method of getting over him
I self destruct, am I doing that again?
Please tell me?