That is a question for a reason. Please don’t read on thinking that I have the answer to any of this.
Let’s see …. The list of people I was mean to:
That just about covers the people (with one exception) that I spoke with this weekend. If I texted, I was much less offensive.
The list of people I ignored would take up too much room.
Yesterday after the worlds worst opera, multiple fights with little R and nearly passing out from starvation, I went home and put on the most comfy clothes I own. I knitted and ate! Then I realized since Sir left I’ve been basically ignoring the old dogs. We had cuddle time and my crazy girl held me as I cried and she cried and then when to was over they both attacked me to clean my tears, it was gross and cute at the same time.
My mother has left me alone, so I’m going to chalk it up to…..guess it was t that big of a deal and since I paid for dinner, she could care less about my attitude.
Funny how I don’t drop emotionally after a scene, that’s all physical, yet when Sir leaves……I put it off, but I can’t get past the drop forever.
I think part of the reason I get snippy with Sir is because I communicate the most with him and unlike other people I don’t lie to him, that is both a good and bad thing.
I also find right after he leaves I get very resentful of people with more traditional relationships. I’m not talking about the D/s dynamic at all. I’m talking about the rest of it.
That passes and when I return to normal …. I get a renewed gratitude for the life I have.
I’m slowly getting to that point now and as the weather is turning pleasent, my attitude is following.