Yup, I did it, with Sir’s help I’ve very slowly and keeping health in mind, I’m back in a physical comfort zone with my body. I fit into my old size 4 jeans and just to make sure it wasn’t a fluke I went to a store on my way to the dentist in the city that has loads of petite clothes and picked up my old 6p size pants and extra small top. I had a near panic attack in the dressing room but walked out with 2 tops and a pair of work pants! All in the size my mind will allow. Lol, I was cutting the tags out of my clothes so I didn’t see a daily reminder that I had gained weight.
I’m not done and for every goal I hit, there is yet another one around the corner. The next goal is another 15 pounds, this will make me very small, but I want to stay strong while doing it. Next week I’m going to add weights into my routine, if I would have done that at the beginning my legs would have gotten very bulky and I would have looked like a meat head in reverse. Think all lower body and a stick figure top.
Oh, back to the title, tonight is my goddaughters sweet 16, the dress I was going to wear…..nope, way to big. I gave it to N last night and she loved it. So today after the gym I come home to dig out all of my old clothes and pray I have something that is appropriate for the event. Sir said borrow something from Little R, but….her clothes are not going to fly in the group I’ll be in tonight.
After running around the city and bklyn I headed back home to have a nice visit with N. She made the leap and has a sadly empty Fet profile. We talked of the way we drop and how excited she is to go to the next party. We agreed more hugs and care the next time and also promised that when the tears come she will pick up the phone to me. Poor N, they came when she was at work yesterday. No reason, but she sat there hysterically crying and the feeling of the world crashing around her came out of no where. By 2 am we were both happy and glad that we have made such a good strong friendship. We also said aloud what we both knew a long time ago…..we won’t ever be more than friends. I told her what Sir says, put 2 subbie girls in a room together and you know what happens?….Nothing! I think in our case that is not true, because what happened was, we built a friendship based on trust. So no lines crossed and she left with a wish to keep our friendship the way it is. Lol, and she will also be sending a good amount of high quality sex toys to my house, so her kids don’t find them. Somehow I’ve turned into the keeper of other people’s kinky things? Not sure how that happened but it looks like I’m going to have to empty out and organize my chest to fit some more.
Sorry Sir, heading to the gym, so it was either blog or emial. Hope you had a nice nights sleep and a big hug to wake you.
Your mushy slave