I’ve been thinking about my loneliness lately.
Yes I have some great kinky friends, good people, but still at the end of night I’m alone.
Sometimes I really doubt Sir and the things he says. It takes me a while to see the light. At first he said that I needed a subbie friend. I have one of them. She’s great, but there’s a line neither of us will cross.
So the idea that I got was…..find a nice vanilla girl. Someone local and bi, but not in this crazy kinky world. Someone just on the outside of it. Someone that I won’t share with the group. God that sounds selfish, but honestly I’m a little tired of sharing.
So back into the wild world of on-line dating I go. My pics will still be blurry or headless. I have to be even more careful since in the vanilla world I have more of a chance of someone seeing my profile and being out and proud is really not the goal.
Who knows by next week I may be totally turned off by this idea, but for now, I guess I’m ready Sir.
Oh and a funny side note. N and I were talking about men that make girls squirt. So she said how FGD has been doing that to her. I told her she should tell him that he has to teach us, since I have no clue. That resulted in a big laugh and she received an immediate invite over for morning coffee! So they are off having fun and I have to get out of here to head to the land of swimming pools:)
Why is it I seem oh so good at hooking others up and suck at it for me?