Many things happened this week that are just below the surface. I don’t know if I’m just letting life take me where it may or just ignoring stuff.
My neck went out, so after a rather painful day of work and not looking left at all I headed to the Chiro. I assumed my chiro was a pot head ex-hippie, but it turns out she takes these herbal supplements that are full of villiarian root. When I get stressed it’s all in my shoulders and my neck sadly pays the price. So between the vice grip on my face N had and the stress of life itself my neck was a mess. She adjusted it and it was instant relief, but we both knew it would be sore and some swelling would occur. She gave me 3 of her pills and she said it will just make you feel like you took a deep breath and exhaled. By the time I arrived home, she was right. I was much calmer. My shoulders were no longer earrings. I was breathing again.
FGD was looking for me to make him go out, but I just couldn’t. I had made plans with l, m and the kids for dinner. I wanted to treat them to a nice night out, since they are always there for me. I had mentioned to him in passing that I had the papers but needed to get them notarized. M turns out is a notary. So she had brought her stamp with her. L insisted he treat us to a bottle of wine with our meal and when he went out for a smoke and we did the paperwork, he came back in with a small bouquet of flowers. He said it was to bring life into the apartment. A sweet gesture. His daughter was off to meet friends and they dropped me to get her to her destination. As soon as he dropped her he called to see if I was ok and if not they would head right back over. I was ok, I don’t know how much of it was due to the meds or knowing that I have Sir and a good group of friends to lean on.
I took three more pills before bed as directed and for the first night in about a month I slept solid. No waking up in a panic at 3 or 4. I feel clear, kind of energized.
This weekend I am taking it a little slower than normal. No kinky adventures, just time spent with the people that are good in my life. My mother and I also seem to be working things out. Since we had our long talk we communicate daily. No more bitchy texts. I unfollowed my aunt of facebook, so I hope that with a little time I can forgive her and her bashing of all that I believe in.
I really think the DT presidency is going to do wonders for the big pharma companies. The amount of stress that any aware citizen is under from him is going to skyrocket the needs for sedatives. This week alone I know of three people that went to doctors and ended up with anti-anxiety meds. This is the first time since 9-11 that I’m really scared, afraid for the policies we will be implementing on both a national and international basis.
Well it’s time to do laundry…..