There’s no laughing in BDSM:)

Anyone in the NYC scene that’s been around fire play will know that’s a tag line of one great player.

Last night after along work day and in a rather shitty mood I headed out with N to our usual party. Since there has been much drama in our group, the crowd has changed and I must say it’s for the better.

I had to go. Sir offered to get me out of it and be the bad guy, but someone had to be there for N. It was her first time topping a guy and I knew she was going to be super high and in Dom space and that’s something that you should have a friend there to see.

So at one point I’m watching n in one corner go to town on this guy. The hostess in another getting some amazing rope, and in yet another corner a funny fire play scene. I’m not usually one to sit on the side lines, but I was already in the line for fire play and none of the people I would normally play with were available.

I was chatting with a switch that I’ve seen at many parties and just being generally social. All three scenes went well.

After N was all smiles and totally invincible. I knew she would react like that. She needed to top a man, since her history and upbringing has had her always being suppressed by men. I made sure she took care of her sub and he was happy with the scene.

When it was time for my scene we started with a negotiation and some testing of the fire. He’s good in that no matter how many times he plays with someone he will always test to see where they are that night. After realizing that we had played before, he came up with a special finally.  All warmed up with some relaxing fire on my back he flipped me over and the tickles started. It’s all a mind fuck, with quick burst of fire to my nipples and jokes. He took the cotton out and started to make it fluffy. That’s when I noticed he had more cotton than usual. Instead of lighting each tit up he made a bridge and set my entire chest ablaze and I laughed so hard and the more I laughed the more he laughed and the whole place was laughing. I think it helped he had me scream a count down to the finally to get everyone attention. It worked. After was big hugs and yup, more laughter. When you get as low as I really was yesterday, there’s really not much more you can do, but to laugh.

My mood was brought on by a few things that yesterday I could not see. First I had cleared my day to review documents that were due from a vendor at work and needless to say, they never delivered them. So  was dealing with work frustration and listening to the asshole that sits next to me just fed into the shitty mood all day. That feeling was running along with really missing Sir. It will be almost 2 months in between visits and that generally doesn’t do well for my mood. I was talking with that switch and she also has a long distance dynamic with someone and she said that it’s hard when what you feed off of is connection, because sometimes you feel so very disconnected by the distance. I know exactly what she was talking about.

 

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