My heart knows 

Today is heart meditation, funny, right Sir? 

My first reaction was to rip this book to shreds. The last 24 hours I’ve felt that anger start to rise. The hot flashes came back with a vengeance last night. So bad, I almost called in sick today. I really thought about doing that, but taking to the bed is a reaction to stress that I think is the easy way out. 

There’s no mantra today, just a direction to sit and listen to your heart. I can’t do that. Mine feels like it’s missing. 

So my ending affration is “I feel the presence of Devine love”

“Today I feel love in my heart.”

Ugh, what a shitty thing to say or read. I realized I still haven’t look at the saturday yoga schedule or made plans to meet with my friends. I’m kinda Blahhhhh about it. It’s on my list for later. I have a ton of work to do and it’s kicking off with 2 hours of calls back to back. The tone of my voice will sadly convey my disconnect, so I’ll stay as small as I can. 

Today I’ll just wait to hear how Sir feels. See if this procedure works. I’m trying to stay in the moment, not play the overthink the future game. 

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